life and death and separation and love

last year i officially lost two friends,
left me devastated equally.

last year i lost two friends,
both played a different role in my life.

last year two men have left me,
two of the few whom i had hold closely to my heart and soul.

last year two of my friends and i gone our separate ways,
the friends who i loved most and most

last year,
ive gone from having two men to none.

last year ive lost two friends,
one caused by death,
and one caused by life.

part 1
Death

you never thought you can actually witness death,
or knew the death of someone closed to you while youre alive.
somehow we grasp it as if it is just a tale,
always someone's story, news, television, movies, but never our story.
never.

but again, it happened. but this time "death's happen".
didnt ask for it,
didnt give you any warning,
it just happen, and took my dearest one.

i cried, i cried, i hiked and cried some more.

part 2
Life

you never thought you can actually lose someone when they're still alive all healthy,
let alone someone like your best person.
somehow all that 'grown-up' bullshit is just a bullshit.
always someone's story in someone's book, television, movies, but never our story.
never.

but yes, it happened, and this time accurately "life's happen".
didnt ask for it,
didnt give any warning when i first jumped in,
it just happen, and have taken away my dearest one.

i cried, i cried, i went away and i cried some more.

and after all debacles,
you see..
llife and death not that much of a difference yet it is so much different than the others.