when

when you see things only with your one eye,
turn completely blinded the other one,
ignoring things that shouldnt be ignored.

compromising feelings,
rasionalised intuitions,
feel more that I intend to,
cry in discreet,
feel like shit most of the time,
go backwards.

but i love when your neck fitted perfectly with my face,

but im also longing for the day that my hands are capable to wave you goodbye.

a day like today

a day like today,
remind me so much of you.
when we would just talk and sweat the smallest stuff and laugh so hard,
when i was calm and well.

a day like today,
where the rain melts my worries away,
when i was able to say goodbye without looking back,
close the gate behind me without hesitation.

a day like today,
when the air is mist and made me feel ok to have you slip away and accept bunch of your other ones have held your hands.

a day like today,
where i could walk on the street and had my jacket on,
made me understand why you chose them and not me.

a day like today,
where i thought,
when i feel,
i could let go.

and now i am just another one of them.
whose hands you've hold and forgotten,
who misses you when you dont,
who writes about you when she shouldnt.