human never be satisfied

i've read so many books,

i've played so many songs

i've listen to gazillion of music.

i've wrote so many poem

i've been to half of the world

i know so many people

i've paint on too much canvas

i've shook hundreds of hands

and i still want more,

no go

it's missing the melody,

it's missing to create,

it's missing to touch the shutter button,

it's missing to write,

the brain knows,

but choose to ignore it.

safe in square

that ash tray is over used,

25 per day.

that room is foggy,

and that lung is barely breathing.

that holly mind is blocked for weeks,

that body is falling apart, every bones are in pain,

MASSIVE headache is an ogre knocking off the trees.

the blood cloth.

nothing outside is interesting enough anymore,

this square is safe,

somehow people are a bore,

that ears wont listen anymore.

that door wont open,

that legs wont move,

this brain working like factory's machines,

someone has lost interest in communicating.

those cameras has hanging so long in the closet,

that pen tablet is dusty.

those papers are piling up.

those instruments has been hiding under the bed.

someone has lost it.

and she has been praying to god ever since..

hope for a come back.

acceptance

A : i have nothing againts gayness.

i have lots of gay friends, even bi.

i don't think it's something that has to be 'cured'.

i'm pretty open minded about that. i don't mind it at all.

nowadays gay people are everywhere, and they not afraid of

showing it anymore.

that's good, cause nothing wrong about it or them.

B: hmm, so then you'll be fine if your kids turns out to be gay ?

A: ............................................ (went TOTALLY silent)

tersumbat

sesak, jalan sempit.

susah untuk melihat ujungnya.

susah.. susaaah.

semua strategi sudah dicoba, habis sudah.

beban ini tak kunjung reda,

hey!!

otakku tidak bekerja,

menjadi pengangguran selama 105 hari.

hasilnya nihil.

sesak, jalan sempit.

aku tidak berkreasi.