ooo send me to heaven

life is amazing, why should i be worried?

have i lost some friends along the way?
yes, but the new ones also come along.

have i been cheated?
yes, but i too get the chances to cheat.

have i been hurted so bad and cant get out of the sweat pants in weeks?
yes, but i've learned a lesson from that.

have i been betrayed?
yes, and from that i know what kind of person i wouldnt be.

have i dissapointed at many things?
yes, but life isnt always work the way we want. And to be fair i too, have dissapointed someone along the way.

have i feel being lefout among the familiar faces?
yes, but that is what make my heart grow stronger

have i feel that i made so many mistakes?
yes, and life is going forward so do i, just try not to make the same mistake.

have i been left by someone?
yes, but those who come they would leave

have i been distroyed by someone or something?
yes, but with strength i managed to get up and take a breath again.

have i ever blame myself for what goes wrong?
yes, but then i learned to forgive myself in time

have i ever been so selfish that i couldnt even forgive myself?
yes, but then i learn to be selfless and realized that nothing revolves around me.

have i gone to the dark place?
yes, and im still trying to get out of it.

aquarium

beraktifitas biasa,
berkomunikasi, berjalan, mengisi perut, dan menjalakan kewajiban.

melakukan kegiatan seperti biasa..
tidak ada beda..

dengar kabar gembira diluar sana,
tersenyum,
dibalik lapisan kaca,
kaca yang membendung, memisahkan dunia.

laluu..

kabar itu datang,
sesak dan gemuruh..
berkabung..
lama..

namun nasib,
hidup didunia berbeda, dibatasi oleh lapisan kaca.
mana ada yang dengar, mana ada yang lihat..

tidak bisa berekpresi, tidak dapat berbuat apa-apa.
aku ingin peluk! ingin ada disana, temani yang sedang berduka.
perih!

gerakkan dan suaraku terbatasi oleh lapisan kaca.
didalam aquarium bervolume besar.
hanya dapat menerima dan melihat.
tidak bisa berbuat.

karena aku tidak sampai melompat.
aku berkabung didalam.

(semoga Dwi Siti Aisyah dan keluarga diberikan ketabahan dan kesabaran)