NYC

I dream of the city lights beams at night

I dream of every hotdog and corndog in every corner of the street

I dream of stacked actors apartments

I dream of the humming of writers block

I dream of colorful wet streets on a rainy day

I dream of the glamour broadway light

I dream of Daniel Day-Lewis walking on a street

I dream of going pass, by, through that 5th Avenue

I dream of underground poetry readings

I dream of their shit coffee

I dream of their fattening food

I dream of laying on the grass of Central Park

I dream of the free concert

I dream of the backstairs of apartments

I dream of being ignored by that yellow cab

I dream of the city that never sleeps

Coffee

I wish that you'd come every time I look out the window
every time that door open up
I wish that you'd come when the lightning express it's excitement towards the sky
when the rain comes pouring down soaking every inch of my soul
When the wind breezes through my fingers and hair
I wish that you'd come when the motorcycle roam in a distance
Every car doors that's closing
I wish that you'd come

I wish you'd come in each of every scream of the gamers
In every order that's placed
In every coffee that got paid

The coffee that they smell
The coffee that they sip
The coffee that make them chatty
The coffee that they finished

Over that coffee they socialized
Over that coffee they talk
Over that coffee they deal a job
Over that coffee i wait, wait, and wait

I wish you'd come
When I open that door
When I walk home
When I am home

I wish you'd come when you don't

lousy jerks

Through this screen I saw,
there were some jerks hanging around together,
they fought each other in the mud, that dirty mud,
but they helped out each other at the end.

Through these eyes I see,
there are some jerks hanging around together,
they fight each other in that dirty mud,
but this time, they leave each other behind.

On that screen I've seen many
with this eyes I've learn many
And that screen, got me thinking
and these eyes, got me wishing

Through some stories I've been reading
Through some thoughts I've been avoiding
Because some of that stories got me hoping
Because some of that thoughts got me destroyed.

What are you trying to steal?
no, none of this is my will
oh, whatever it is you trying to steal
I tell you, I have nothing.

Let me see those kind of smile
Let me feel those kind of love
Let me hear you say its forever
Although i know there's no forever

Stop! that lousy smile
cause all I've got its dirt in another aisle
Stop! that lousy, oh so lousy love
cause all i feel its just another failing laugh,

That Time

So it's down time again.
I remember the last time I had it.
It was excruciating.
It was like a thunderbolts attacking the core of the body.
I was electrocuted.
The high volts charged me back to life.
Then it began..
The slow stabbing. It was so slow i could feel how many inches has gone through.
I'm never sure whether it was a knife, a thin sharp dagger, or a thin pointy ice.
What i sure about it was the feel of it. It was cold, cold, and cold.
The salt water was always the final touch.
Salt water and an wide open flesh. Well, you know the rest.

I always do tests to know if it's healed.
It never were. Though there were times i thought it did.
And there were times my surrounding tricked me.
It doesn't matter, cause it never did.

It's that time again.
Where i take my feet to step down the ladder, one by one.
Right-left-right-left-right-left. Again.
People have tried to hide the ladder, but i always manage to find it.
I know what's down there, i visit it from time to time. Unintentionally. Sure.
Now I think, I think, I would have to go down there again.
This time by choice. I chose cause i have no choice.
I'm scared, scared, scared because it's a one scary place.
Now i have to climb down. I only have to climb down cause I climbed up.
I have to land. I have to land only because I took off.

saya kamu dia kita dan kalian

Ia yang tak berdiri
Ia yang tak bisa terlungkup
Ia yang tak bisa bangkit
Maka berbaringlah ia tak berdaya
Maka berbaringlah ia terisak
Maka berbaringlah ia terhempit sesak
Maka ia berdoa agar ia bisa berbaring tak bernyawa

masa berlaku

I turned it upside down
I flipped it side to side
I tore it down
I have looked inside out
I have searched front and back
I turned it 360
I keep looking for the expiration date.

CEPAT

Bolpoin in hanya satu,
maka saya harus menulis dengan cepat.
Bolpoin ini hanya satu,
maka saya tidak boleh menghabiskan tintanya.
Bolpoin ini hanya satu,
maka saya tidak boleh egois.
Bolpoin ini hanya satu dan bukan milik saya,
jadi saya harus berbagi.
Berbagi dengan orang lain, memang susah,
tapi saya harus rela karena bukan saya pemiliknya.
Bolpoin ini hanya satu,
maka saya harus menulis dengan sangat cepat,
kalau-kalau ada yang mau meminjam,
kalau-kalau diminta pemiliknya untuk diberikan kepada orang lain.
CEPAT!! Sebelum tintanya habis, sebelum tenggang waktu saya.
Bolpoin ini hanya satu dan bukan milik saya.
Saya tidak bisa memaksa, harus saya kembalikan, harus.